the upik abu

someday that I am going to stop

2009-12-29T21:13:00.000-08:00

My dear Saya:

As a matter of minutes You are able to put the highest feelings in my heart not even reached by the hand of heavenly bodies.
And then You dashed me fall into the sea abyss so when that time I have looked very low.

It is important if You can see the ups and downs of this mentality to just start a conversation, "Hello!".
That it wanted to but did not want to, that it could but could not.

Yes, the fact that more clearly apparent.
"There has been talk with parents", You said with great caution.
Oh, well. I hope it is just a joke.
So, I do not care.
There are many things that can happen until next year or maybe until the plan is realized.

You are the greatest!
Even when I said if You are someone who is talkative with innocent face and soft.
"What is innocent?", calmly.
You are so me.
You are a person with a personality that made me chuckle admiringly.
Warm and pleasant.
Funny.

Impeccable.

I ignored my dream, as long as it is You.

I think You are a gift.

I like how You talk.

I am madly deeply in love.

I will always smiling, proud of You in every story I tell to others, even though it was a tragic thing, and I should have told it with tears.

Crazy.

I think a lot if we are truly soulmates.

We are written.

I love You by a name.

Thinking that our wedding cards would be cool.

The same three letters with the location of the same order.

But You drowned me with a reminder that there was a figure that far before I had attended and make you not be swept back for a second time or even for the umpteenth time.

I am really in mess.

"I have promised to ignore this, please ..."

Shit! I hate it! For once I am fed up with someone who devoted himself to fidelity.

I am tired.

I am frantic.

I too much force.

Sorry.

And I knew, I've lost, by time.

Detestable.

You knew, I dare to face anyone and anything for the sake of this ambition, You.

"I dare!"

I will never be wary to cut my embarrassed veins when I have to take your hand from her grasp.

I really can when it comes to taking action that might not make a sense.

Right, I am the real selfish.

But when you asked me not to, again.

I thought I should really stop, finished this drama.

Run like the night before.

I had to let go of my desire, You.

Do You know? Last night, I was sick, I can not sleep.

I was happy, and fallen.

But I can not cry even though I told you I am truly sad. I had promised to leave.

I do love You,
Dirimu

Her Little Baby

2009-11-10T21:52:00.000-08:00

FUCK YOU(very much) by Lily Allen

2009-11-09T22:35:00.000-08:00

Look inside, look inside your tiny mind
Then look a bit harder
'Cause we're so uninspired, so sick and tired
Of all the hatred you harbor

So you say it's not okay to be gay
Well, I think you're just evil
You're just some racist who can't tie my laces
Your point of view is medieval

Fuck you, fuck you very, very much
'Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you, fuck you very, very much
'Cause your words don't translate
And it's getting quite late
So please don't stay in touch

Do you get, do you get a little kick
Out of being small minded?
You want to be like your father
It's approval you're after
Well, that's not how you find it

Do you, do you really enjoy
Living a life that's so hateful?
'Cause there's a hole where your soul should be
You're losing control a bit
And it's really distasteful

Fuck you, fuck you very, very much
'Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you, fuck you very, very much
'Cause your words don't translate
And it's getting quite late
So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you
Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you
Fuck you

You say you think we need to go to war
Well, you're already in one
'Cause it's people like you that need to get slew
No one wants your opinion

Fuck you, fuck you very, very much
'Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you, fuck you very, very much
'Cause your words don't translate
And it's getting quite late
So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you
Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you

notices...

2009-06-11T04:59:00.001-07:00

Cava bien!

Gw newbee banget ni di dunia blog dan of course ini adalah postingan pertama gw. Sebenernya gw sudah cukup lama buat situsblog ini, tapi baru sempet nulis sekarang. Sibuk ga sibuk nyatanya gw emang sibuk, sibuk makan, sibuk nonton, sibuk smsan, sibuk onlen facebook… Ga lah, gw sibuk beneran, sibuk memikirkan dan membayangkan MASA DEPAN gw! Halooou, secara im 18 years old, next Saturday im graduation(semoga hasilnya seperti apa yang gw harapkan! AMIEN!). Untuk masalah pengumuman kelulusan ini, benar-benar sangat menguras waktu, karena tiap hembusan nafas panjang pikiran gw langsung “duh, lulus ga ya…” gw bener-bener takut, takut sekali, takutnya setengah mati atau bisa dibilang hampir 89% pengen mati beneran(tapi pas keinget dosa-dosa gw yang bejibun, keinginan itu BATAL). Buat yang lagi waiting for the final exam baik yang SD, SMP, SMA pada deg-deg’an juga ga sih… Hah sumpah nulis ini aja sebenernya buat gw merinding disco lagi. Kepikiran lagi dan lagi. Tapi tetep harus optimis dong din dong! Kita pasti LULUS!(sedih gw) pasti! Lagian kita pan juga udah berusaha keras kemaren-kemaren, dari yang ga pernah belajar jadi belajar tiap hari walaupun ga ngerti yang dipelajarin apa, jad les tiap hari, jadi sering diskusi soal-soal ama temen, jadi rajin shalat 5 waktu dan dhuha, jadi sering ngaji(ketauan deh gw). Allah melihat perjuangan kita… Tapi jujur sih UAN kemaren gw belajar dan ngerjainnya agak ga serius dan fokus, entah kenapa begitu. Alasan itulah yang buat gw sekarang jadi takut banget ama pengumuman. Huaa(tarik napas). Tapi gw yakin lah bakal lulus, temen gw aja kemaren sms bilang kalo hasilnya udah bocor dan kita(gw dan temen-temen gw) LULUS! Alhamdulillah deh walopun agak ga masuk akal pas dy bilang hasilnya udah bocor(tw dari mana coba…) gw amienin! Waktu kapan itu(gw lupa tepatnya kapan) gw pernah mimpi juga gw LULUS. Mari kita yakini itu. Hhuhuhu.

Selain pengumuman UNAS tadi ada lagi pengumuman yang buat gw ga kalah deg-deg serr’annya. Gw kan daftar WARA gitu, 3 hari kemaren(senen, selasa, rebo) gw udah berturut-turut tes. Tes hari pertama, administrasi kayak pemeriksaan berkas-berkas gitu, menurut gw cukup lancar lah karena sepertinya gw dapet poin plus dari piagam-piagam kejuaraan English debate yang gw punya dan satu lagi gw dibilang terlalu pinter buat masuk WARA gara-gara verifikatornya ngeliat nilai-nilai UNAS SMP gw yang katanya waw banget(dulu emang gw pinter, tapi sekarang jangan tanya).

Tes hari kedua, kesehatan I kayak pemeriksaan kesehatan fisik luar(mata, gigi, THT). Nah yang paling gelinya di tes kesehatan I ini kita(yg daftar) disuruh telanjang bareng dan ditaruh di dalem ruangan ber-AC lama banget(masuk angin tauk!). Parah deh pokoknya. Gw ga bisa jelasin dengan detail buat tes yang satu ini cz agak gimana gitu. Walopun sumpah ngocol gila. Gw agak ragu buat tes ini cz gigi gw juga belon rapi dan ada varises di kaki kanan gw.(sial, padahal sebelumnya gw juga udah check-up, dokternya bilang gw ga punya varises).

Tes hari ketiga, kemampuan jasmani meliputi samapta A, samapta B, renang, dan antropometik. Ga perlu gw deskripsiin satu per satu, pokonya intinya itu ada lari push-up, sit-up, pull-up dan kawan-kawannya. Menguras jiwa dan raga! Capeeeeeeeeeek banget! Mana gw najis, ga bisa renang gitu.

However, minta doanya ia biar semua-semuanya lancar bin sukses. Buat kalian juga deh! AMIEN!

Merci.

Ps: for all girls casis WARA dari Jogja makasih berat karena telah menobatkan gw sebagai MANOHARA jadi-jadian. Im happy being famous! Nyahahahaha.